Friday, September 11, 2009

In My Room

Today Mom was released from the Hospital and transferred to an Alzheimer's Care Facility. She met with the Director and Nurse from the facility at the Hospital this morning but was unable to recall the incident that had resulted in her placement in the Hospital...other than "her daughter put her there". As I've previously noted, that behavior is so far out of character for her, she probably can't even conceive it. Also of note is that she was so highly emotional at the time that it was probably never processed...even temporarily. She cannot fathom that she would or could commit such an action. And she couldn't, if it weren't for the illness that has invaded her mind.

But I digress. Today Mom has a new home, with a private room that has a nice view of a large courtyard in which she can walk or sit, and pictures of her family nearby. She will soon have a TV in her room, and personal items that she can enjoy which will hopefully help her feel comfortable and eventually at peace. I know it will take some time for her to become accustomed to her new surroundings, but I am satisfied that she is safe, she will take her medications, and she will eat properly.

Her Sister from Arkansas came to see her through the transition and my Son was also able to visit as she was checked in. However, after this initial transfer, we will not see her for a couple of weeks so that she can learn and become familiar with her new surroundings and the people who will be assisting her on a daily basis. From my initial impressions, they are wonderful people, who are committed to ensuring that the individuals they care for are treated with respect. Slowly we will visit and eventually it is our goal to be able to take her away from the facility for dinner, medical appointments or other special activities.

While this has been the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, I know it is the right thing. Mom told me that I would have to answer to God for what I have done, and I quietly answered her that "yes...I will." I only wish she could understand that He already knows I'm acting with love in my heart.